BOYS & BUGS !!!

I have always taught all of my kids not to freak over little bugs. In fact I often times will go out "Bug-Hunting" with the kids, more times with Alex and Emily than the other kids, or maybe I have forgotten about the older kids times' since it was forever ago. SO, Alex has a new fascination with bringing Ants into the house because they are his friends. as much as this warms my heart, I soon snap back to reality and try my hardest to explain that ANTS have to stay outside. I mean it IS summer time and who wants to have more ants in thier home than what come in already. GAH. I have tried to understand the utter fascination with boys and bugs, no clue why they are just thrilled with the thought of playing with them, watching them crawl around and then squashing them. we have been Lightning bug hunting for the past few weeks, the kids get the most fun out of that. I love it too, so many memories of being able to stay up past dark when I was a child, and I love that I am able to share that with my children, HOWEVER, ALex otoh, just loves his little bugs To death. Litterally. thier little green lights, just amaze him to the point that he almost needs to dissect them to find out just why they glow the way they do. Im hoping this is a sign that he will be an animal activist,but who knows. he doesnt purposely hurt the animals for fun, he is just so amazed at how they work he wants to learn more. I think several animal biology books are in order for his upcoming birthday.

Alex-isms

Being 4 almost 5 must be wonderful. your basically catered to, You are able to "mouth" your parents with little to no punishment. You speak in your own language and your parents understand you. You torment and tease your older brothers to the point where they really want to hurt you, and then bat your eyes at your mom, only to have her stick up for whatever it is that you did. Pretty much you could kill the cat ( we dont have one) and then look at your mom with those great big eyes and beautiful smile, and she instantly forgets all that you do. Here are a few words that I love when Alex tells me.

Ding Dong: = Taco Bell. ie: MAHM, you loooove that place, you know that ding dong place.

Happy Face Man:= KFC. OH mahm, you know I just love that happy face man place. its got good cheecken.

Buddah King: = can I got to Buddah king with seeesah? huh mahm.

Sadly enough I cannot post anymore this evening, BEcause MY 4 yr old is too busy getting into things he shouldnt .

NEW Post same shit.

SO I realized from a co-worker who found my blog that I have not posted anything new in about 3 months, and thought I would try to find something new to talk about. For starters I could explain why I had stopped writing in the 1st place. MY Husband had "found" my blog and of course took EVERYTHING out of its original context and has never let me forget it either. FUN TIMES. I have also been working my ass off at work, which will soon change. THANK YOU GOD, IM READY for it. Im going down to 2 days a week, until the time they hire someone new and they want my hours, then out the door I will have to go. HMMM. MY computer isnt so much my friend as it once was, it has lost its magic when I was certain my husband had a tracker on here. who wants to live like that.? not me. BUT I do. Alexander is the same as he once was. I think he has given up wanting to wear makeup. atleast for now. LMAO. EMILY otoh, is quite the rotten. were talking full blown rotteness here. OH tons of fun. Jacob is growing into a teenager and boy he sure does SMELL like it too. BLECH. I have not seen my Jimmy in quite a long time. breaks my heart but what can I do, nothing. so It shall stay that way. Laura is moving out AGAIN, this time with her best bud from childhood. I really do want her to go and be young and have fun and make memories, so that when she is my age she will look back and laugh her ass off instead of looking back and saying, GAH, I stayed with my mom because I was scared to take a step forward into life. I will miss her terribly, I can honestly say that to each other, we are the worst critic and biggest cheerleader that we could ever find. I will have to start anew with being a mom to 2 young children. I should have had alex and emmy younger, because I have gotten a taste of what it is like to have the so called freedom of having Older kids, and having a job that I love, but Im tied to the little ones until they are a bit older. and for the most part I am ok with that, I love it, and I cherish it, then there are days when I wish I really had, had them when I was younger, because geeze, I try to squeeze so much into one day that it seems impossible. I no longer have trouble going to sleep because Im exhausted I just fall into bed. right now as I type this alex is on the counter and emily is crawling into a chair, Ive had to stop 3 times to tell them to both get down then once had to get up and Make them get down. WHY DO kids do that.???? i really think they try to drive thier parents insane. honest to god I really think that. well I am off of here to make rice krispie treats, MY guilty pleasure. they have helped me gain the 20 + lbs I have put on in 8 months. YIppee for gaining weight in your belly and your ass, to really make you look PG. until next time.........

Special for Laura,& JImmy

Just so you will forever KNOW how proud your Mother is of you both, I am writing this to show you. Granted A & E are super close, and I am a different person than what I was when I parented each of you, I JUst want to show you what I have learned as your mother, to help me become this person that that I am now.


LAURA: I have learned undying love, you are my youth, and I have helped you grow into a beautiful young woman, not too shabby for me. I will be forever grateful that you chose me to be your mother at such a young age. You came into my life when I needed you the most. your fiercly loyal and Im so thankful for that.I loved you the minute I saw you and Have never stopped. I have watched your kindness show through with alex and emmy and it makes me proud to be your mother.. I have seen your mind grow and I was able for a second to live through you with all that you have and WILL accomplish.I never ever want you to feel " bad/sorry" for me for being a young mother. It is a path I chose willingly, and have NO regrets whatsoever, it was yOU that chose ME and I will be forever thankful. YOuve also helped me learn patience , every blonde haired, blue eyed, child I see, I see YOU, YOU have helped make me this calmer MOM and A & E benefit from it. I thank you for your being there with me. I thank you for all the help you do with alex and emily,I thank you for picking up the house when I come home from work and I thank you for being you.

Jimmy: this is what I have learned from you: Patience, undying love, how extremely important it is for Boys to have involved mothers. I thank you for all that You do and will do for me. Youve grown into a good young man, and I would like to think I had something to do with it. Im proud of you for the young man you are growing into, your kindness and the ever constant " I love you mom's" that I get. Your love for your sister Laura and YOur little sister Emily, the way you show alex and jacob just how much you love them, Your way of trying to goad me into beating them. The way you hold the down and fart on them, and wow should I go on. so much love that you show them, I almost dont know what else to say. I know one thing, I should have never ever let you go with dad, not that dad was bad, but a part of me died that has and nver will be the same. I love you both very much and I hope you know it.

ALEX.....

Do you have an ALex? Does anyone else on this planet have an Alex? My patience has been tested for over 4 years now with mine. I love my son, I really do, He is a special gift from god and I believe this with all of my heart, I call him " my special" because both of us almost died trying to bring him into this world. BUT MY GOD, how much more am I supposed to take. He is not your normal 4 yr old child. OH NOOOOOO. This HAS got to be a grown person stuck inside this tiny body. I KNOW HE IS. NO ONE and I mean NO ONE can order this child AROUND, You have to reason/barter with him, Granted the Boy has 5 older siblings: an 18 yr old sister that he has learned attitude and bad words from as well as his love of makeup and all things girly, a 15 yr old brother that he has learned how to tease and torment others with, a 10 yr old brother who he has learned how to push other people's buttons to enjoy the rise he gets from them, and 13 & 16 yr old step brothers, that he has learned to try to be gangster from. NO KIDDING. GANGSTER HERE IN OHIO. LMFAO. uh sure. I have always had a hard time disciplining Alex, he had a seizure 2 months before he turned 2 and after that I just couldnt be too strict with him which has manifested itself into what I call ALEXANDER. I take full responsibility with the Monster I have created, But this tiny adult is super smart, he tries to outwit me and where he fails ALL THE TIME its amusing to listen to him try to explain his situations. HE DOES what he wants when he wants and its not happening anymore. I have tried every punishment possible, do any of them work. NOPE. they sure dont. HOW does one discipline a child who has so many different attributes to them.? you cant. reasoning is a good thing, sometimes it works sometimes It does not. He knows its CHOICE A OR CHOICE B and btw he usually pulls his tricks when both hands are tied, (changing diapers or gasp having a minute to use the potty myself). so today after trying to wake his sister up from her nap this is what happened:
. Alex got into trouble, so I sent him up to lay on his bed. While folding the god awful amounts of laundry I have, I heard after many attempts to get me to answer him by saying “I love you mama, moooommmm, mommmmmm, I love you”, then this is what I heard from him:
“GENIE, GENIE, why you so mean.” (not , why ARE you so mean, but why you so mean), I thought I didn’t hear right, so I went to the steps to listen, he kept repeating this, and I had to put my hand over my mouth so I didn’t bust out laughing, then I went back to doing the laundry, & I heard, “MUDDER, MUDDER, whyyy you break my heart?”
He has a memory like a damn elephant, but yet he still gets into trouble. here are some recent pics of MY alex, he has the prettiest eyes, which I try not to look at when Im mad at him for you know: getting a steak knife out, or trying to dissect one of his brothers electronic toys, or climbing into the pantry to reach anything in the back, because he has not explored there yet. GAH. OH YES: these were taken after he got into his sisters Make-up. He was thoroughly pleased with himself. He thought he looked so good with all of his makeup on. HOW can anyone be upset when you see something like this coming downstairs to you, I just cant. sometimes the crap he pulls makes me want to bust out laughing, I mean its so clever, and then there are the times that its one thing after another and I want to beat him. I feel like I am a cop with him all the time. if Only he could understand that he cracks me up daily, and at the same time drives me a little more insane with trying to be slicker than he is. I understand that No one can fully understand what it is like to have an ALEX, so be thankful you dont.